Well dont know why I feel something is disturbing me tonight.Hmm sometimes I feel sad without any reason, happy, then sad again...then comes senstivie..I wonder what is wrong with me. Lord, please tell me what is wrong with me. Well this is the first time I felt like this. Gosh, I just dont like this feeling at all...
Since there was no work, so I felt bored. I'm bored going online, watching movies, and just feel bored doing anything at all. I guess I am just bored with my life that is all. The routine of my life is always the same during weekdays. Wake up, bath and brush teeth, iron my lecture clothes. attend lectures, come back eat, sleep, wake up online and so on. Sometimes I just wish someone would take me away from my college and bring me go somewhere and play. Well I dont own a car since my parents would not buy me one, huhuuhu. Guess I just need to stick in my boring room and let time pass by.
Well life is kinda boring. But if we know how to decorate it with beautiful things, life would be so much prettier and more fun and meaningful. I guess I just need to learn how to make my life more interesting then. Maybe books ?? I did plan to start my reading habbits again but today I fail since lazyness overpower me today. Hahaha well I do admit I am a lazy boy. Well maybe I should just sleep early. When I wake up again, I would feel fine and be ready to face my boring life again. Lord, fill me always with Your love and teach me to appreciate life the way You want me to. Amen.
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July had just ended yesterday. Today is the 1st of August, 2012...Time really had passed by so fast..Without me realizing, 2012 is coming close to an end...Well for August, SYD3 is coming...Hahaha the details for it I will update later...heheh well for the 1st of August, 2012, I wanna share something interesting for couples which I found on facebook....Well here goes nothing....
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that’s not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve
then heck no, you can’t “be friends.”
A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.
Don’t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don’t stay because you think “it will get better.” You’ll be mad at yourself
a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant,
Why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man’s behavior. Change comes from within.
Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are…even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god.
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that’s not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve
then heck no, you can’t “be friends.”
A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.
Don’t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don’t stay because you think “it will get better.” You’ll be mad at yourself
a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant,
Why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man’s behavior. Change comes from within.
Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are…even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else’s man.
Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you allow him to treat you.
Think about it...
* Enjoy reading* ^__^
Hmm its been a while now since I wrote my last post, well I was quite busy with my life and I was so lazy to update my blog since I have lots of work, assignments, and other commitments...well...hahaha thats not important...I'm back!
Well I think I try to update my blog these few days..I dont know why but there was a sudden urge in me to start writting a blog...I even start feel like reading books again...Hahaha its been a while since I had a story book or a novel in my hand...Reading is my old hobby since I was small..I was wondering as well why I lost the interest to read books nowadays..Maybe its because too many games ?? too many facebooking ?? I wonder....
Well anyway, I do my best to update as much as I can...Now, I really love reading and writing posts in blogs...hahahaa so expect more new post from me XD hehehe so long for now....Tata... XD
Well I think I try to update my blog these few days..I dont know why but there was a sudden urge in me to start writting a blog...I even start feel like reading books again...Hahaha its been a while since I had a story book or a novel in my hand...Reading is my old hobby since I was small..I was wondering as well why I lost the interest to read books nowadays..Maybe its because too many games ?? too many facebooking ?? I wonder....
Well anyway, I do my best to update as much as I can...Now, I really love reading and writing posts in blogs...hahahaa so expect more new post from me XD hehehe so long for now....Tata... XD
Trust. An important element in human relationship. It is also an element which I could still not yet grasp. Why? Why ? Why sometimes I just cant trust people ? Why I cant trust someone who is so close to me ? I just dont know why. I'm so disappointed when I cant learn to trust people especially the person closest to me.
In order to be trusted, we must first earn trust. Is it me that is the problem ? Is it me who dont work hard enough to gain trust ? I want to trust people sometimes. It does takes time but eventually it will work out. I wish to trust my relationship with someone special this time. I want to learn to trust the girl I am with. Without trust, a relationship cannot last long or work out in the end.
Trust, is it so hard to trust ? I want to learn to trust you more. ^_________^
In order to be trusted, we must first earn trust. Is it me that is the problem ? Is it me who dont work hard enough to gain trust ? I want to trust people sometimes. It does takes time but eventually it will work out. I wish to trust my relationship with someone special this time. I want to learn to trust the girl I am with. Without trust, a relationship cannot last long or work out in the end.
Trust, is it so hard to trust ? I want to learn to trust you more. ^_________^
Thank God I manage to finish my BM Komunikatif KKP...I have really no idea what am I doing for this KKP. Guess its been 4 years since I have my BM lessons lol..Guesss its rusty now ha...LOL anyway the feeling of completing it is so good..Its like a stone being lifted off my back...fuh...
As for the Moral Fellowship, I manage to lead it well I think. LOL I just think I did give my best that is all!! XD Yeah good job Matt!! hahaha. Hmm it was not so bad at all even though I manage to prepare all the things yesterday. Hahahhaa...guess I'm good in doing last minute work (lol dont mean to brag but this is how things are always, I manage to get good results from all my last minute work XP ) Everyone seems to enjoy the Moral Fellowship and learn something from it, so I guess I can call it an ok then X)
Hmmm after cooling down my mind by chatting with my friends and texting Zell, I guess I be fine for now. My mind start to calm down, and I think I be fine after a good sleep tomorrow X) Hehehe now I manage to smile and say, tomorrow will be another day. I love smilling, hehe so that is why I love it also when people do smile. Guess Zell does not really smile a lot though, haha but hope she will smile more in the future X) She looks so lovely and beautiful when she smile you know, and it sorts of melt my heart ( ehehehhe X) ) Hahaha not scared to admit it though but she was beautiful man!!! X)
Printing my last assignment and hearing some Taylor Swift songs kind of make me feel more better and better now. Hehehe hope tomorrow will be a better day. As the saying goes, Life is like climbing a hill, we have our ups and downs in life ..^_^
Its midnight, guess I should sleep after finishing my work. Got to move fast, hoping for a better tomorrow, a better me, and a better mood for me. I dont wan to lose my temper or pull a long face tomorrow. I just dont like it when this happens. Hope I wont get mood swings next time XD
Huahahha.... X) ^______________________________^
As for the Moral Fellowship, I manage to lead it well I think. LOL I just think I did give my best that is all!! XD Yeah good job Matt!! hahaha. Hmm it was not so bad at all even though I manage to prepare all the things yesterday. Hahahhaa...guess I'm good in doing last minute work (lol dont mean to brag but this is how things are always, I manage to get good results from all my last minute work XP ) Everyone seems to enjoy the Moral Fellowship and learn something from it, so I guess I can call it an ok then X)
Hmmm after cooling down my mind by chatting with my friends and texting Zell, I guess I be fine for now. My mind start to calm down, and I think I be fine after a good sleep tomorrow X) Hehehe now I manage to smile and say, tomorrow will be another day. I love smilling, hehe so that is why I love it also when people do smile. Guess Zell does not really smile a lot though, haha but hope she will smile more in the future X) She looks so lovely and beautiful when she smile you know, and it sorts of melt my heart ( ehehehhe X) ) Hahaha not scared to admit it though but she was beautiful man!!! X)
Printing my last assignment and hearing some Taylor Swift songs kind of make me feel more better and better now. Hehehe hope tomorrow will be a better day. As the saying goes, Life is like climbing a hill, we have our ups and downs in life ..^_^
Its midnight, guess I should sleep after finishing my work. Got to move fast, hoping for a better tomorrow, a better me, and a better mood for me. I dont wan to lose my temper or pull a long face tomorrow. I just dont like it when this happens. Hope I wont get mood swings next time XD
Huahahha.... X) ^______________________________^
Recently I had been so so busy...Tons of works always burden me these few days...Sometimes I just could not have enough rest, and even sleep sometimes...Sport Day had just passed, and I have replacement class to go, a puppet show to prepare and a moral fellowship tonight to prepare..Tonight the moral fellowship will be handled by my class. I as the coordinator has to look for a lecturer to give talks, assigning people to prepare games, and singing section.
Gosh!!! Work! Work! Work!! When will this end ??? My mood is also kind of weird these few days. I tend to get angry suddenly when people annoy me even just because of a small matter. I am so scared of myself...I was wondering wat is wrong with me ?? Why am I like that ? This is not me, I did not get angry at people just because of a small matter. Its like I am having mood swings recently. From happy to anger. Its like my feelings just shift suddenly randomly. Gosh!! Feel like I am going crazy!!! Ergh!!
I guess it must be the stress from all the busy work that I need to finish these few days.I really don like to stress myself usually but I guess well life as a student is always filled with work. These work even make me lose my temper sometimes even just because of a small thing annoys me. I guess I should take things easily but I just dont understand why am I like this ??? Hmm...Hopefully after I finished all my work, I be turning back to normal again. This is really not me at all. I should not be like this, its unlike me at all.
O God, give me the strength to finish all my work. Strengthen me when my mood swings happen. Help me to control my anger when it happens too. I really need You Lord, be with me always and guide me always in your way. Amen ..^_^
Hopefully this will end soon..... X)
Gosh!!! Work! Work! Work!! When will this end ??? My mood is also kind of weird these few days. I tend to get angry suddenly when people annoy me even just because of a small matter. I am so scared of myself...I was wondering wat is wrong with me ?? Why am I like that ? This is not me, I did not get angry at people just because of a small matter. Its like I am having mood swings recently. From happy to anger. Its like my feelings just shift suddenly randomly. Gosh!! Feel like I am going crazy!!! Ergh!!
I guess it must be the stress from all the busy work that I need to finish these few days.I really don like to stress myself usually but I guess well life as a student is always filled with work. These work even make me lose my temper sometimes even just because of a small thing annoys me. I guess I should take things easily but I just dont understand why am I like this ??? Hmm...Hopefully after I finished all my work, I be turning back to normal again. This is really not me at all. I should not be like this, its unlike me at all.
O God, give me the strength to finish all my work. Strengthen me when my mood swings happen. Help me to control my anger when it happens too. I really need You Lord, be with me always and guide me always in your way. Amen ..^_^
Hopefully this will end soon..... X)
Saturday, February 5, 2011
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Finally returning to my blog after 4 years..Gosh....A new begining..^_^
Its Sunday, 6th February 2011. I guess its been a while since I post anything in this post. My last post was in the year 2007 LOL!! Gosh 4 years!! Haha luckily today a friend of my, Zell asked me if I have a blog and that is when I remember that I actually have a blog!!! LOL....anyway since she mentioned bout it, I guess its time for me to update my blog from now. Hahaha I had promised her I show my blog to her after I update it. Its such a shame for me not to update my blog at all after some while.
While browsing Zell's blog, I was amazed at how beautiful was her blog. When I looked back at mine, I could only sigh and wonder how I should make my blog beatiful as well. After spending some time doing some changes to my blog's setting, I guess its better than last time at least so far. Hahaha good job Matt!! LOL....anywhere all this things are not important by the way.
Hmmm so since its 1.12 am in the morning, and I havent share anything about what had I done for the previous day, I think I share it as my first post after not posting anything for the past 4 years LOL. Today is actually the day I flew back to Sabah after being in Kuching for one week. Its such a sad moment as I need to leave my family once again after being with them for one week. My mother was the only one who was so sad as she is gonna miss me after I leave. I even got a sms from her saying that she miss me so much that she almost cry when she wake up that morning. Anywhere, its not such a big deal anyway leaving Kuching again since I be back again this March. (Hey mum, just be patient and wait me come back home again ya..Miss you too mum, love you...^_^)
I reached Sabah at 8.00am in the morning. After getting a lift from Uncle Peter, one of a friend of mine whom is always happy to bring me back to my Kent's Institute eventhough he did charge me for the trip .LOL Hahahhaa...anywhere just be glad that I have someone to bring me to Kent. If I use the airport taxi service, it will cause me RM70!!! Ouch!!! Uncle Peter's fee was only RM50 so I guess I can save money anywhere using his service. It was raining the whole day that day and the weather was so cold.
Reaching my hostel, I arrange all my things and sat down to online. That is when Zell suddenly find me on Facebook chat. LOL but I was idle that time since I was busy buying things in Tuaran Town. Anywhere I send her a sms since she appear offline. I feel bad since I could not reply her when she find me on the Facebook chat. Hmm I was a little big surprise when she suddenly pop out from the Facebook chatbox and say she had no credit to reply me. LOL, anywhere it does not matter to me since I just wanna wish her and never hope that she reply me back by the way.
Hmm today I learn more about Zell when I read her blog. She gave me the link when she suddenly mentioned about it. I was too shy to say that I have a blog since it was outdated and it was boring anywhere. LOL...Guess I need to work hard and fill my blogs with things since I only posted 3 posts in my blog after 4 years!!!! LOL.....Reading Zell's blog was fun, I learned that she love photography, playing basketball and even breakdancing. That was the most interesting part when I read her posts about it. She is really such an interesting girl after reading most of her posts. Hehehe..^_^ (P.S: I will write more about this in the future ^_^ )
Hmm after chatting with Zell, I sleep for a while. After that, it is time for me to go to church. I have to go to church today since I am in charge of being the first reader for the readings. LOL its been a while since I had read in Tuaran's St John Catholic Church. After ironing my clothes, getting a bath, I went to church with my formal attire. I need to wear formal when I become a reader since it was the proper way a reader should dress when they read in churh. It was raining heavily that day so I walked to church with an umbrella on my mind. When I read the first reading, my heart really beat very fast since its been a while I had become a reader. Anyway, everything goes on smoothy so I guess its okay to say that I should congratulate myself for being able to become a reader that day.
Finishing mass, since I was hungry, I bought a box of rice, a bag of 'air bandung', a chicken wing, and 2 sticks of chicken butt as my dinner. LOL I know its not healthy to eat those things but when people are hungry, who cares what they eat right since all they could think of that time is filling their stomach with food. LOL X).. After that I went back to my hostel and watched a movie called Ong Bak 3 while eating my dinner. My roommate was also watching this movie with me and we laughed a lot since there were a lot of funny things that we realize when the movie was going on. I guess the movie was okay though, less talk, more actions.
The movie: Ong Bak 3 ^_^
After finishing my dinner and movie, I guess its time I call it a day. Night everyone..^_^
While browsing Zell's blog, I was amazed at how beautiful was her blog. When I looked back at mine, I could only sigh and wonder how I should make my blog beatiful as well. After spending some time doing some changes to my blog's setting, I guess its better than last time at least so far. Hahaha good job Matt!! LOL....anywhere all this things are not important by the way.
Hmmm so since its 1.12 am in the morning, and I havent share anything about what had I done for the previous day, I think I share it as my first post after not posting anything for the past 4 years LOL. Today is actually the day I flew back to Sabah after being in Kuching for one week. Its such a sad moment as I need to leave my family once again after being with them for one week. My mother was the only one who was so sad as she is gonna miss me after I leave. I even got a sms from her saying that she miss me so much that she almost cry when she wake up that morning. Anywhere, its not such a big deal anyway leaving Kuching again since I be back again this March. (Hey mum, just be patient and wait me come back home again ya..Miss you too mum, love you...^_^)
I reached Sabah at 8.00am in the morning. After getting a lift from Uncle Peter, one of a friend of mine whom is always happy to bring me back to my Kent's Institute eventhough he did charge me for the trip .LOL Hahahhaa...anywhere just be glad that I have someone to bring me to Kent. If I use the airport taxi service, it will cause me RM70!!! Ouch!!! Uncle Peter's fee was only RM50 so I guess I can save money anywhere using his service. It was raining the whole day that day and the weather was so cold.
Reaching my hostel, I arrange all my things and sat down to online. That is when Zell suddenly find me on Facebook chat. LOL but I was idle that time since I was busy buying things in Tuaran Town. Anywhere I send her a sms since she appear offline. I feel bad since I could not reply her when she find me on the Facebook chat. Hmm I was a little big surprise when she suddenly pop out from the Facebook chatbox and say she had no credit to reply me. LOL, anywhere it does not matter to me since I just wanna wish her and never hope that she reply me back by the way.
Hmm today I learn more about Zell when I read her blog. She gave me the link when she suddenly mentioned about it. I was too shy to say that I have a blog since it was outdated and it was boring anywhere. LOL...Guess I need to work hard and fill my blogs with things since I only posted 3 posts in my blog after 4 years!!!! LOL.....Reading Zell's blog was fun, I learned that she love photography, playing basketball and even breakdancing. That was the most interesting part when I read her posts about it. She is really such an interesting girl after reading most of her posts. Hehehe..^_^ (P.S: I will write more about this in the future ^_^ )
Hmm after chatting with Zell, I sleep for a while. After that, it is time for me to go to church. I have to go to church today since I am in charge of being the first reader for the readings. LOL its been a while since I had read in Tuaran's St John Catholic Church. After ironing my clothes, getting a bath, I went to church with my formal attire. I need to wear formal when I become a reader since it was the proper way a reader should dress when they read in churh. It was raining heavily that day so I walked to church with an umbrella on my mind. When I read the first reading, my heart really beat very fast since its been a while I had become a reader. Anyway, everything goes on smoothy so I guess its okay to say that I should congratulate myself for being able to become a reader that day.
Finishing mass, since I was hungry, I bought a box of rice, a bag of 'air bandung', a chicken wing, and 2 sticks of chicken butt as my dinner. LOL I know its not healthy to eat those things but when people are hungry, who cares what they eat right since all they could think of that time is filling their stomach with food. LOL X).. After that I went back to my hostel and watched a movie called Ong Bak 3 while eating my dinner. My roommate was also watching this movie with me and we laughed a lot since there were a lot of funny things that we realize when the movie was going on. I guess the movie was okay though, less talk, more actions.
The movie: Ong Bak 3 ^_^
After finishing my dinner and movie, I guess its time I call it a day. Night everyone..^_^
Doop doop...doop doop...doop doop....every second pass by my heart would beat as if it wants to come out...The teacher today is giving out exam papers once again...Oh today results is quite okay by the way but wat....my chemistry had fail!!!!!!!I only get 33% and it is the second subject that i fail before additional mathematics....Oh I was really shocked when i know that i have actually fail my chemisty exam....Luckily my other results are okay...I scored 69% for my English paper, Moral erm...72% and my Bahasa Malaysia only 44%...Oh i really wish that i have study hard but i was still playing when it is exam time and i seldom practice my subjects too....I really hope to scored well next time......
Hi...its me writing again...The time now is around 5.22p.m and I am just siiting in front of my computer writing this post...Today is really a bad day to me as today the teacher will give us back our results from our last first term exam....It was really horrible...My additional mathematics only scored 16%, my history only 57%, my physics only 42% and my mathematics is only 61% only...really no good lar the result today...I lose a lot of marks mostly because of careless mistakes so sad......
Wow...finally i have my first own blog...Really can believe it at first but it is really real la...Erm...actually i dont know much how to write in a blog but I guess I just pop in a few words haha....If anyone knows wat I should do in my blog....Plz give some comments so that I can expand my blog...I really hope that this blog will become much more better in the future.....So all are welcome to view my blog anytime ya......Happy reading....^^
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